But it’s weird. For years I had dreams over and over again of the sea. I love water and would always escape to it when things weren’t going well in my life. It’s a running theme in my life. And, recently on the psychotherapy course, things came together and I realised why all this was so. I hid myself in a place I’d remember.

During work on sub modalities in the psychotherapy course, I realised that I had this deep urge to add an intense orange light to good experiences. Yeah, I know, drugs again. LOL. But the orange light was the most intense thing I’d ever experienced and I had no idea what it was.

Then things exploded and I must confess I haven’t got a clue really what’s been going on over the past month or so. That orange light is self love and a beacon that shines from the bottom of that metaphorical ocean showing me where my real self is. I’ve been an echo of myself for far, far too long and the guilt of what I’d done all those years ago had prevented me from swimming out and rejoining my real self. I’ve never told myself I love myself before. Not once in 28 years. Contrast that with countless hours beating myself up, having a go at myself, wishing deeply that I was someone else.

But over the past few days I’ve just said spontaneously. Like it’s emerging. I know all of this sounds “far out” and a bit weird but it is a remarkable transformation that I hope has come early enough. There’s a lot hidden down in that metaphorical ocean and the realisation that pretty much all that has held me back in life was set up by the child version of me just before he joined the self hatred is remarkable. I set the barriers up. I can bring them down.

I talk a lot about self love when working with people with Social Anxiety. When the self love informs the validation, rejection changes from “you’re not good enough” to “we’re not right for each other”.

I get regularly mocked for my belief that love illuminates the world. Yeah, well it does. It might not manifest as an orange light in other people but that love is there and boy can we let it shine if we get back in touch with us.

And no, Mum, I am a good boy and have not been smoking anything. 🙂

It certainly changes how people respond when you change the thinking and feeling you do about yourself, doesn’t it?
And as you mention in your High Self Esteem Programme (available in Adams hypnotic store ;-), it’s not necessary that you have to love yourself, just that at least you can accept yourself for who you are.

And as Shakespear once said (not to me of course, but to someone else who wrote it down and told me): “There’s no good or bad, only thinking that makes it so”

Who you are is who you are, it’s not good or bad unless you decide to think of it that way. I’m getting there with the accepting thing…gradually anyway.

🙂

My pleasure Sara, always good hearing from you 🙂

Nice new product idea Joy… I think that would fly… I could just play that sexy French song “Je T’aime” and record me kissing the mirror for hours on end with the caption: This is how to love yourself.

Brilliant, I may have ot get you on board for our monthly creative brainstorms.

Love to you, A. 🙂